Grrr. I hate having so much to write about, but not feeling like doing so. I also have a diary, which I feel the same way about. I wish I could be more so consistent, but so much goes on that I can't be bothered with writing crap down.

Harrison and I are friends-with-benefits right now. I lied to him about something and he broke up with me. I feel terrible for what I did, considering our relationship was freakin' amazing! But, we are working on things. I'm hoping in time, we can rebuild what's been damaged. I love this boy very much.

Also, due to the break up, I had to goto Lewis-Gale for a few days. Stupid reason, right? The day we broke up, he totally ripped away parts of me. I wanted to kill myself and I tried to run for the knife drawer and my mom had to restrain me. Then she called the cops on me, I had to goto the hospital, then ride in a police car (handcuffed) all the way to Lewis-Gale. I think a big reason for my breakdown was because I missed my dose of medicine two nights and in a row.
But it helped me to be there. A lot. I'm in a better place now, mentally and emotionally. Unfortunately, I was out of school for a while, so I'm very stressed out about catching up my schoolwork. Ugh :\

Also, there was a tornado here! Rare, because my town is located around mountains. It screwed up parts of downtown. Everyone else was so shocked except me. I've been waiting on a tornado to come here since I was little! lol. I have a video that I took. My mom and I were standing outside out apartment. It was the craziest storm, it felt like a hurricane. The wind was crazy, it was hailing, and the rain was insane! I was like "wtf is this?!" lol.



Ahh. I'm hoping things will get better soon.